Abused as a child, unloved as a woman.
I was molested when I was 3 by a family friend and my mom prayed for me but told me to stay away from men, even my father. I did not let a man touch me in anyway until I was 10.
When I was 10 my uncle hugged me and rubbed my back because I couldn’t sleep and I bawled not because I didnt like it, but because I did.so much
I cut myself when I was 10 to deal with my molestation and finally got therapy.
When I was 15 I was raped by a minister and he tried to kill me and he raped me with a knife, my vagina is all scars and sex hurts.
I am pregnant at 22 from unwanted sex with an ex, I am sure not sure if its defined as rape.
I married him recently and I am getting it annulled or getting divorced ASAP I dont love him that way. All behind my famalies back. My family controls my life.
I want to be loved by a man, but I have never fully felt it.
I find more satisfaction from an online relationship partially because they can’t touch me or try to have sex with me, but mostly because I can show them anything I want and tease them and masterbate for them, and they can’t touch me and I am in complete control.
I want to be loved and I want to make love but I can’t find that person that will understand me and my past and be patient.
I have never had sex where I wanted it.
I cry myself to sleep alot because I feel unloveable.