I want to cut myself right now.
Published: September 30th, 2008
I am sitting here in front of my pc and it is taking everything in me not to go and cut right now. I am having another bad day. I spoke to the man I am going to be having an affair with today… and I don’t even feel guilty. He is here on a holiday and instead of having fun over mail we decided to turn it up a notch. I am not a random tart, we have known each other for years. But still, it does not make it any better.
I just want to take that blade and feel it run over my skin. Watch all the bad blood leave my body.. then go downstairs to my family and put a smile on my face like I always do. Life is so ironic. “What is the point in dying to live, when all we are doing is living to die”