The Stories You Cannot Tell

While with my husband, I met a guy he worked with in a store parking lot. While talking to my husband on the phone while he was at work, this guy would occasionally yell out a cute little comment in the background (He later admitted that he KNEW he’d get my attention with that). One time–I sent him a flirty text just to be cute. He was married, and I really didn’t know anything about him–I didn’t think he’d be interested, but after seeing me–he was. I’m in my 30’s & he’s in his 40’s. We chatted for 2 months, then met at a hotel. I had so many scenarios of how this night would go, but it went perfect. This was supposed to be a one-time thing, but we’ve been together at least 40-50 times over the past 2+ yrs. We’ve mostly met in hotels, but have even had sex at his house in his bed. We’ve taken “drives” to be together too. I am SO into this guy, and he is SO into me. I will do whatever he wants. He loves anal stuff, but his wife doesn’t, so he’s in heaven with me—he loves to lick my ass, stick his tongue up it & loves to fuck it. I love him doing it because he’s SUCH a turn-on to me. He likes when I lick his ass too. He loves the way I give him blowjobs, and the way I let him rub his wet cock all over my face while I look up at him. He loves to go down on me–loves the smell and taste of my pussy. He loves how I “take initiative”, yet am also submissive with him. This guy can stay hard for a LONG LONG time. We go at it for 2 to 3 hours at a time–we are ALL over that bed in every single position we can think of. I am so attracted to this man for his looks and his ways. Not only am I confessing the affair, but I’m confessing how in love I have been with him for 2 years. We are both in love with each other, but both have families..and he moved far away. Didn’t stop him from hooking up with me twice when he came into town a month ago. He called me yesterday–he said he wanted to us to change our lives and do what’s right. By the end of the conversation, he told me he was “weak”, and he was laying on his bed with his pants off stroking his cock–he asked me to have phone sex with him..and I did. He wanted proof that I was touching myself, so I put the vibrator up to the phone so he could hear it before using it on myself. He was so turned on hearing the sounds I was making, and he too has SUCH a hot, sexy voice. Not only did we have “fun”, but he told me he was “making love” to me. We both said “I love you” to each other while we were doing that too…because we do love each other. But..I know we will never be together, and I know it’s time I tried to change my ways….

Ashley Madison was something that I had never even heard about until I decided one day to search for affair tips on the internet. I’m six years in to an abusive marriage and wanted a little joy out of life. I signed up, found a few people to my liking and my affair began.

A few months after I started cheating, my husband found out. Although there is a few sites that will even give you cheating tips so you dont get caught, I was convinced I wouldn’t get caught. Maybe I wanted to get caught?

Anyway. The bad news is that I got caught. The good news is that my asshole violent husband left me because I was cheating. I never realized that one way to end our marriage was to cheat but did it ever work! I had tried everything I could to leave but due to things I can’t talk about(like he had some SERIOUS blackmail material that I couldn’t have put in public domain), I couldn’t leave.

I’ve never been a fan of cheaters but I gotta tell you, it was worth it to me!

I cheat on my wife. I love her, and am attracted to her, but I still cheat. Mostly with prostitutes. I think I have a sexual addiction. I feel compulsed to cheat on her. If I see a girl walking down the street, I have to pick her up. Sometimes I circle around to wait for her. Most times I can check myself, but occasionally, I can’t control myself. i’m terrified of getting an STD. I use condoms, and get tested, but I can’t control myself. Lately, I’ve been cheating on her with transexual pros. I don’t take it up the ass, and don’t suck cock but I do them anal, with a condom. Luckily I live in a small town in North Dakota, so there aren’t any girls to tempt me. But I travel alot as a salesmen and it’s hard to control my urges. Maybe getting this out there, will help curb my appetite, I don’t know. I don’t want to do this anymore, but why can’t I stop?

I started to sleep with this guy a few months ago. No strings attached. Just sex and fun. Plus he is married. This have been going great. We hang out, drink, have sex, then things started to get more like I was dating him. The lines started to get blurry. He started talking about “us” and his feelings toward me. My mind was thinking thoughts of a life with him. The kicker of it all is I see his family every Sunday at church. I am friends with his wife. She has been like a mentor to me growing up. (There is like a 14 yr difference in age) And the sad part of it, I’m not guilty about sleeping with him. I feel guilty about possibly being in love with him and pretending that I feel nothing!

Christ does that ever sound like the lyrics from a rap song, but it’s true. She is pregnant with my kid. I know it. She does not and has told me about how “they” are going to get married now(Guess she forgot about our little tryst!!!)
Good news is that “he” is loaded and comes from some old school family wealth, whereas I am just a lowly white collar worker, barely able to afford the rent I am paying for the shithole I am sitting in right now. I am sure she did me out of charity.

I’ll keep my secret. Her and her family and his family can give this child more than I ever could. As hard as it is to swallow the guilt, in my mind I know it is in the best interests of my unborn child.

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